2017: Chasing Happiness

“Because it’s not just everybody deserves to be happy, but everyone has a chance to grab happiness and chose to have it.”

2016.

A year full of chances and opportunities. It brought me lessons I would bring through the succeeding years. It taught me a lot of things. Things that are more important than what our naked eyes could see. It even took me to places with little essence of paradise. And most importantly, it has given me a chance to make things right and straighten crooked lines from 2015.

I learned that your best friend could forget your birthday, but it doesn’t matter anymore after a 13 second sad momentum because you love her more than what odds could bring. I learned that not all would stay the same. It’s not that you aren’t aware of the phenomenal changes on earth, but you always chose to believe it has to be like this because it was fucking like this before. But no, you don’t need changes-acceptance. You had that. What you need is a little sprinkle of reality that “change” is a status quo. However, it only works through your mind, but not to your heart. Because what you feel would fade, but nah-uh..it wouldn’t change. (Like, you loved Chuckie drink, it fades but you’ll never forget the feeling every time you take a chocolatey sip.) 2016 brought me a piece of opportunity to “fix myself” though. You could start with my job, new acquaintances, friendship, and you could include love. Oh, that freaking feeling.

Nevertheless, 2016 taught me that love is and will never be adjacent to fate. You feel it, but it was never crafted across your lead. You have to explore it, you have to fight for it, you have to chose it and most of all you have to let him/her know that you’re willing to do what you have just read. *laughs* sort of like that. Am I going to do it? I don’t know yet. 2017 knows.

Friendship. Chances. Fate. Love. What else did I learn?

Oh, yah. One more thing.

I learned that not wearing a watch makes you more human. Haha believe me or not you have to believe me. Time flies baby. And you’ll never know what you’re missing within 3 seconds every time you look at your watch, every time you feel the pressure of time. Breathe. Think. And then breathe again.

Time is a man-made grid. Not bad to forget it some time.

Lastly, I want to take this as an opportunity to tell you (whoever’s reading) that life could be miserable, sad and arrogant most of the time.. but have the right to chose happiness. Because it’s not just everybody deserves to be happy, but everyone has a chance to grab and chose to have it.

Say thank you to last year, and say hi to 2017. A year full of chances. Full of choices. *** Well, it’s always been, pal! 🙂 ***

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Libing ni Marcos na Nababalutan ng Hugot at Pag-ibig

Kasama sa balita kagabi ang pagpapalibing kay Marcos sa libingan ng mga bayani. At bigla ko na lang inihalintulad sa pag-ibig ang nasabing pangyayari. In short, naging crazy ako, tapos medyo naging bitter pero medyo nainspire ng konti na umabot hanggang tenga ko yung kilig. Haha kung bakit, eh ilibing na natin kasama ni dating Pangulong Ferdinand Marcos. :p

Pakiramdam ko, napapanahon na na maihimlay sa tamang lugar ang dating Pangulo. Hindi para ilatag na isa nga siyang bayani sa mata ng bawat isa, pero dahil minsan niyang ibinahagi ang sarili niya sa panunungkulan para sa Pinas. Hindi perpekto ang pamahalaang Marcos. Siguro hindi ko lubusang maiintindihan ang Martial Law na yan. Eh hangin pa lang naman ako nun.

Tama ka. May nasaktan. May nasugatan. May hugot. Malalim. Madiin. Kaya patuloy na may tututol. Patuloy na may mananariwa ng nakaraan. Patuloy na may ipipilit ipaglaban. Hanggang sa mapagod. Hanggang sa mauntog ang mga kaisipan.. Hanggang sa mapagod ang puso na maghanap ng mga kasagutan sa mga tanong ng nakaraan.. Na minsan kahit gaano kasakit ang iyong naramdaman, kailangan nating ibaon sa lupa ang nakalipas. At subukang tanggapin ang katotohanang.. May mga bagay na di mo na mababago kahit kailan. At may mga bagay na kailangan mong isara para bigyang pagkakataon ang mga pintong maaaring buksan. Para bukas makalawa, hindi mo na iisiping sinaktan ka lang at iniwan. Oras na para isipin mong, kaya mong ilibing ang mga bagay na minsang nagpabago ng ikot ng mundo mo. Pero kaya mo pa rin patakbuhin ‘to gamit ang manibela mo.

Hanggang sa matagpuan mong muli ang halimuyak ng pag-ibig. Hanggang sa muli mong mahalin ang iyong sarili.

Yan. Diyan lang magsisimula ang mga katagang

MOVED ON. 🙂

-kung hihimayin ba ang bawat buhay ng mga taong nakahimlay sa libingan ng mga bayani, ilan kaya sa kanila ang talagang masasabing bayani? :/

Phantom of an Unfinished Subtle Tune

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Today, I decided to write an exultant piece

Like what I’ve written for the past few years

But now I don’t know what to put

Superman or the butterflies or the tears

And as the rain pours down

Creating a melancholic rhythm on the ground

There’s this persistent tune ensuing

I hear your sweet silly voice singing

And it keeps on whispering in my ear

Like a drug into my veins so sheer

Caressing every inch of my soul

Like a phantom to my deepest core

No title, just me and my crazy side

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My coach during lives asked me “Where do you get your crazy ideas?”.. and I just answered “I don’t know sir.” And I realized today, maybe because it is me that is crazy that’s why crazy stuff normally comes out out of my lips in solid thoughts.

-Thank you sa chicken ni Ate Cathy! Nung tinikman ko, nakabalik ako sa katinuan ko. haha 🙂 Salamat po. ❤

No Title: Walang basagan ng feelings

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Pangalawang tula. Tagalog. Para sayo. Para sa lahat. Para sa mga taong nasabihan ng paalam. Para sa mga taong malaya na sa salitang paalam.

(and it goes like this..)

Sa mga taong nakalipas
Muli kong sasariwain
Ang pangako mong binitawan
Sa isang sulok ng kawalan

Ang nakakahong kirot ng nakaraan
Waring pinapaalaala ang mumunting ligaya
Ng mga tala, buwan at ulan
Na minsang binuklod ng pitong tulay ng kalangitan

Nais kong gunitain ang saya
Kirot na nakakahon
Paalam, sapagkat ako’y malaya na

Kung masilayan man ang tulang ito
Isa lamang itong paggunita
Sa pangako mong nawaglit

Sa panaginip, ‘Mahal kita’ ang nasasambit
Pero alam kong sa pagdilat ng umaga
Sagot mong ‘Mahal din kita’
Hindi na para sa akin..
Ito’y para na sa kanya.

-Blog ko to. Walang basagan ng feelings.

Superman101: My Secret Escape (Para sa may puso at soul.)

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Image Source: iamgeniousdeviantart

Paunang Paalala: Ang tulang ito ay para sa mga may puso at kaluluwa. 🙂

Ito ang una kong entry para sa Superman101 haha chos.

Soon I’ll have my HarshZone101 too! Summer feeds. :))

My Secret Escape

 

I like it when the sunshine touches my face

For I know I’ll catch another day to have my secret escape

I like it when then the wind breathes on my ear

Saying, “You’re beautiful, I want you to stay here  (with me).”

Voilà! I see you My Secret Escape, in a silhouette pane

Then my heart beats like a little drum in vain

I see you My Secret Escape, glancing my way

I like it when you say my name

It’s the sweetest whisper; it drives me insane

I like everything: your laugh, your glare; thoughts of you

It’s like the most engaging melody, out of the blue

(Yeah…Your fragrance too.)

My Secret Escape—-

Is it possible to miss the things that we never had?

I want to know, please tell me!

…’cause I think I’m falling…

I want you to catch me.